Insatiable

Is my hunger for a home.

I visited my family this weekend.
It made me beyond happy.
We did nothing special...
nothing dramatic...
Except for the river boat ride on Saturday,
we didn't really have anything planned.
We were just family.
I don't remember missing them this much.
Maybe its because I finally have a picture of all 6 of us,
Just a small wallet photo...
But we are all smiling...
even Jake...
because Jake hardly ever smiles in pictures.
But it was just good
to be in such a loving position.
To know what belonging truly means.
I miss them already.
So much.
And I wish that when I wake up in the morning,
Dani will be on the bed with me,
And Sarah will be on the floor,
And Jonn will have Jakes bed,
And Jake will be on the couch,
ANd in just a few moments maybe
I will hear my dad make the coffee.
I left Reptile there.
I told Sarah
to tell mom
to send him to me.
I miss him too.
But its Bear Fest in Grants Pass...
So I"m not entirely surprised that he wanted to stay behind.
I keep thinking,
"If I just had one more day..."
But one more day would never be enough.
I saw my family every day for almost 21 years of my life
And now the visits are far inbetween,
And now I know a lifetime would never be enough to spend with my dad and mom and brother and sisters.
My nana and grandpa.
My beloved Bear.
My family.
It was such a wonderful visit and surpassed any expectation I would have placed on it. I am thankful that Jonn wanted me to see my family as much as I did...I love Jonn. And Jonn loves me. He is family.
Anyway,
I'm tired
Uberly.
Sleep well, dear ones.