I apoligize

I must say sorry
I can not remember the last time i read our dear blog
I return to one full of beauty and pain
have you ever heard that superchick song?
Beauty from pain?
"And he will bring beauty from my pain..."
Amazing song... so true

My Willits girls I LOVE YOU ALL!!
reading your blogs it hit me
life is scary and things are changing

I am in my finals week
this morning i met with my prof to go over my paper
she said i looked comfortable, relaxed
unlike everyone else she had seen
i realized...yeah i am
not stressed, strange but so nice
i cant stop thinking about home...well santa rosa... my parents
seeing Karine for the small sweet time i get to

I made a new friend who reminds me of her
it makes me happy to be around her but deeply sad
cuz she isnt Karine
not my Karine who laughs and crys
whoes words are always so full of life
Why Baby do you have to stay so far from me this summer?

Willits is not going to be the same
i am glad i am not staying there
i miss it dearly but am sickened by it at the same time

HA HA
it seems so strange that i am coming off as calm
my heart feels like a whirl wind
i cant remember the last time i spent some quality time with the love of my life
Jesus
Yet he has never left my side

I like this guy
every day my fondness grows
and yet i have no idea what he thinks of me
i love the friendship that we are developing...
i dont want things to ackward
but it would just be nice to know

Bah i am done thinking about that
i keep going over in my mind how i am going to pack my car
i cant wait

unlike you i will not miss 243
there are some good memories in here
but my roommates dont come anywhere near the greatness of those from
310

Time is flying
no joke
reflect on what Jamie said
smell a rose
become an Egyption princess for a day
stop and talk to the sun
close your eyes and breath
slow down
love people
bless people
praise God
pray
live life like Jesus is coming tomorrow

I LOVE YOU ALL
MAY THE LORD BLESS YOU
AND MAY HE KEEP YOU
AND MAY HIS FACE SHINE UPON YOU