sorry john mayer i'm not waiting for the world to change

i like to cry
today i figured out why
the last few days
i have wanted to tear to come so badly
last night, when the stars were anything but my friends
last night, when the stars mocked at this little girl
trying to grow up
i wanted to cry
my friends, the stars, twinkled in laughing manner,
at my tired behavior, telling me I couldn't handle it all.
but the tears didn't come
or today when i got to afi
and no one was in the office
and i had to hike around campus
looking for someone with a key
the tears didn't come
sitting in my room
sitting next to the inevitable
the fact that I am leaving the
310-ness soon
i want to cry
but they haven't come.
crying to me,
crying is liberating
its like have the weight of the world like mud
on your face
then shutting your eyes
raising your hands
and opening them up to the rain
as the rain comes down
fresh
and pure
it washes all the mud away
and leaves me clean
refreshed
renewed.
thats why i like to cry