all of these bastards have taken his place, he's forgotten but not yet gone

goodmorning sun
i am a bird
wearing a brown polyester shirt
do you want a coke?
maybe some fries?

I feel off.
like the world is at a tilt
and no one told me.
everyone has adjusted and is walking fine
but karine, darling, is a-trippin and a-fallin
this last week has been nasty.

its seems like nothing has gone my way.
I hit finals week running
then took my last final, started a new job, and moved in to a new apartment
in one
day.
now i'm getting up at 350am for work, i work till 130, waitressing
my car was hit twice last week.
in the stupid parking structure
total estimate-$2,000
whoops.
the internet cable wont work on my computer
or i can't get it to.
so i 'borrow' someone's wireless
i found out my DS was done completley
wrong
and i have to re-do it
my mom yelled at me yesterday
because she and my dad got in a fight
in which they questioned their marriage

homefeelssofaraway

talisha needs a hug
i can't give her one
mallori has a new boyfriend
i haven't met him
jamie is in the same town
but i haven't seen her in a few days
eileen is coming up friday
i will see her
willits has $5 afternoon movies
willits has my airport
my stars
my place for clarity
this town has none of that.
i have the strangest fear that i wont go back to school
that i will waitress till some man finds me cute enough
to slap a ring on
why am i worried about that?
i dont know.
school is where i will be.
mark my words blog
mark them
underline them
italic-ic them
bold them proper

i texted him
and he never wrote back....
praise the lord for erasable markers......
i think i just want a hug now.
i think i want someone to pat me on the back
and tell me growning up is hard
but i'll survive.
why do i cry now?
why do the tears flow?
i dont have time to cry now.
my DS book stares at me
begging to be redone
my closet screams to be organized.
the kitchen floor needs to be mopped
laundry is running.
at 350 the alarm will yell at me
screaming for me to be responsible and get up
get to work
get to the real world
get
get
get
go
go
go
go
go
go
i'm scared.
can you see it in my eyes?