Heidi

I got a letter from a girl
I met at Christmas time this year
over yams
dark lighting,
big lonely table and the niece of my Grammi
does that make us cousins?
Quiet girl and spoke funny
dark hair and yes lonely.
Heidi,
hidey
but looking for an opening
and when I sent my thank you note
for the foam ornament, flake of snow
I got one back again.
waiting forgetting life moving quickly
here in Salem, then I got another
envelope now touching the skin
of my elbow as I type.
the words in there are a heart outside...
(you are who you are
no matter who reads it,
I will learn this some time)
"I been thinking of you" in the empty east coast
without parents.
been living, fixing printers. allergies and pictures.
"I miss my dad so much, I sit here and cry"
bad grammer and an eloquence I have never tried.
No past tense, just now
"thinking of getting a job,
I was told I am able to work even if I am
disabled"
such thoughts are stabling
to Californiability
slowness is so scary to our vocabularly
and my own.
I will write back,
I too, "am so happy that I meet everyone."